My Love

 

You came so swiftly 

like a light wind

and swirled around me.

Rather than running away

I welcomed you,

cauz i didn't know it would 

become something permanent

I walked towards you carelessly.

I had my shell to protect me.

And my memories to stop me.

But slowly, the shell cracked. 

Something stirred in me.

The strange beating of heart,

blood pulsing, the warm feeling

I got scared at first.

It felt good but what if it ends,

like last time or even worse.

But you created something between us so special

"I love you." I typed with teary eyes

and read your reply with the tear flowing down.

I know. Stupid. Right?

And you kept on filling my heart.

Weird to know but in pain your name is on my lips.

In happiness your name comes to my me.

Sitting ideally, you occupy my mind.

Not a single day i spend without calling you. 

Is it normal? Am i falling too deep?

Why your smile is stuck in my mind? And why I find it so calming?

Why I stare at my hand and remember when you kissed it?

Why I want to hug you so badly?

Or just keep looking at your pictures?

Oh well. There's an answer.

Cauz I have fallen in love with you.

Therefore, my heart is not only 

filled with love but also fear

Fear of losing something so dear.

Fear of taking risk.

How should I show you how much I love you?

How much I think about you?

Literally everyday. Every minute.

Even when watching a romantic scene

I remember the one I spent with you.

You misunderstand me. But dear, you are

someone very important to me now.

And to be with you someday together

is like a dream so hard and far to reach.

But not impossible to live.